I have neglected this space for almost a year now. why? because life was busy I guess, busy and content. I was happy with my family, friends and my one in a million dog. But when everything is going well, life just likes to slap you in the face… I lost my 2 year old husky. He ran out of the house and got hit by a car. He didn't survive the collision. Just imagining the pain of the impact shatters my heart… he's a big dog but by no means fat, and most of him is fur… how painful would it have been? the force shattered the car's windscreen and activated their airbag. I can't even begin to imagine… He was my babyboy, my little angel with a furry coat and waggly tail… i love him with all my heart and maybe more… i miss having him in my arms again. I'll let him lick my face a million times… His life was brutally cut short and I'm full of regret and heartache. In the day I can keep myself busy to not think of the tragedy, but there's not a single night that I don't cry to sleep. I know my mum is worried sick of me but I cannot move on. I want to be at the place where I'm supposed to be, smiling when i think of him and remembering all the good memories, how cute and soft natured he was. But I am stuck in a dark place… my dearest panda, i love u soso much. You were the sweetest, most perfect dog I could ever dream of. I would give up anything to have you back again but its all too late.

<3 had a cup of tea at 1:10:00 PM

Omg this is love on so many different levels!!! I'm gna see if I can get my panda to make this face! Its so comical!!

<3 had a cup of tea at 6:44:00 PM

Add a splash of colour to this dead space with my favourite movie Up.

Sometimes the simplest love stories are the ones that make me cry the most.

<3 had a cup of tea at 5:56:00 PM

Shamelessly ripped this off 9gag.com... Gets me EVERYTIME I see it *chuckles*

Been too long since I updated this blog I dun even know if anyone reads it anymore... Heck, I dun even check it!

But its christmas soon n end of 2011! Came back from an awesome baliXsgXhk trip n I'm missing it so much!! It mainly being the villa in bali cos it was jst soooo heavenly!! The country itself I'm not that fond of, the humidity, the heat... The beaches were nice but not THAT spectacular compared to what we have here in sydney... And they're not as clean as well cos I think their sewer waters run straight into the oceans... But the villa was perfect! The travel companion bff was great too! Its wayyyy too funny travelling with shan! N I feel she really deserves a trophy or medal for being the best bff for taking care of me in sg when I got food poisoning, buying me porridge n literally dragging me to the hospital to get injections n drips... Majorly loves her! I know I sorta ruined sg for her, but we've made plans to go again nxt year to make up for it! Lotsa laksa and sentosa next time!! :)

Ok that's all I can be bothered to conjure up from my blackberry! I MUST FLY! MY PEOPLE NEED ME!

<3 had a cup of tea at 4:02:00 PM

i want...

i NEED to find something like these! these are lanvin snake-skin wedges sooooo gorgeous... at $1200 a pop... i need to find cheaper inspired versions!

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I'm feeling much better about going to clinic n seeing patients now... I actually want to see all the interesting stuff...

Saw CHRPEs last week n then saw WWOP today (my first ever wwop!!! I was so happy I spotted it!) N today a visiting supervisor sat through my entire consultation n I didn't feel nervous! Not as bad as I'd imagined it to be :D

I'm happy for now :)

The only thing that can make me happier would be successfully conquering salted caramel macarons hahahahahaha :D
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<3 had a cup of tea at 11:32:00 PM

In Perth for 2 weeks for preceptorships!

Its mid second week now so almost over! I can finally go home to my big bed n home-cooked meals :)

A great learning experience overall cos I had the luck of the world of a really great optom to do it with...

Thanks to stupid kristy at uni, she failed to tell me that I can live with the optom... So instead I booked to stay in perth for 2 weeks n have to travel 1hr every morning n night... I dun mind the travel since I'm used to spending a long time commuting on the trains, but its the price I mind... Because I can't use my student card in WA, I have to buy adult fares, and its so expensive... Costs me $7.65 for ONE WAY! :(

Oh well just have to wait till my tax return for my bank account to look happy again! :)

I miss home!
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<3 had a cup of tea at 10:05:00 AM

On 11th June I wish that I would wake up to la renaissance macarons (jasmine n salted caramel please!)

I wish that I will wake up to have super nice hair day with big loose curls

I wish that I will get an old school birthday card in the mail!

I wish that I get to eat the yummy cheese kranski sausage and maple-syrup pancakes from pancake parlour...

I wish I also get to eat the yummiest rocket salad from moomoo's

Too bad!
1) I'm working so no way to get la renaissance!
2) My hair is a total bitch
3) No one uses snail mail anymore
4) Pancake parlour is tucked into a small happy corner in melbourne :(
5) Moomoo's is tucked into another happy corner in gold coast
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<3 had a cup of tea at 7:15:00 PM

Hello world im turning 21st soon :D however i'm hardly in the mood to celebrate since birthdays always fall conveniently during exams... and this year with preceptorships, its even harder to plan a party...

I'm NOT a party person... never ever had a birthday party, not even when i was a kid... but i guess i should have one at least... as usual im procrastinating when it comes to planning it... i have a rough idea of where and what it will be... one thing im sure of, is that the party will be very belated :S

apparently this year dad won't be here for my birthday... I suppose not having him here is a blessing in disguise, but i *think* i'm kind of unhappy about it... I guess its every day that your daughter turns 21... although i did manage to get my present off him... he verbally agreed to get me a ticket back to singapore end of this year (yay!)

anyway i have to get back to studying... blogging is sort of a chore... i guess 1 post per month is the most i can squeeze out from my dried out brain...

<3 had a cup of tea at 7:07:00 PM

neglected my blog for almost a full month!! bad bad me!! its just so much work to churn out an entry bleah... posting photos is abit of a hassle too...

really happy that i went back to china last month... got to see my dearest grandparents and glad that they are still doing ok in terms of health... Every single time when i go back to china ever since i was a little girl, i'd always cry on the day i have to come back... this year, right before i boarded the taxi headed for the airport, I held onto grandma's hands n the tears jst came flowing out again... For all these years i feel bad not being able to be beside them... All that i can give them is 1 week per year, which is really not enough... 姥姥姥爷 璨璨很想你们 很爱你们...

me + alice + shan + 3 cousins + cousin-in-law

clinic rotation changing next week and i'll be getting night clinics... hohoho good luck to me 8am-10pm day here i come! :'(

<3 had a cup of tea at 8:11:00 PM