obviously i've chosen blogspot to host my blog once more... hmm... it's like back to square one... oh wells... the fonts look pretty small... oh wells... it reflects my handwriting... hahaz... anyway this entry was typed out on 13.02.06... when diary-x was just down and i innocently thought that it would be all right and things would remain to what they were soon... hai... but i dun blame diary-x cos they never expected something liddat to happen and it was not their fault (but that does not mean i dun blame bill gates)... but i just thought that it was unneccesary to close down the whole of diary-x... but let's put the past aside eh... anyways, so i typed this entry out in Microsoft word that day and copy-pasted it here... i hope ppl will get inspired by him the same way i was (though hardly cos of my superb engrish and my vivid decliption... haha)

Do you have a role model??? Well I found mine today!

School invited a speaker today and I'm really inspired by him... he is this homosexual who has HIV...

anyway I digress abit here first... from today onwards, I'm not going to call gays gays anymore. I'm going to call them homosexuals cos I think it's more professional and less mean... thanks to my role modal, mr peter, I have a new found respect for homosexuals... I respect that their sexuality is not their fault (no one wants to be a homosexual anyway) and I admire the courage that they have to admit their homosexuality in such a world so full of discrimination... I was thinking that the only reason why ppl discriminate others is because they are different from us and in most cases, such as the homosexuality community, they are the minorities... so I was wondering if this world worked in a way such that there norm was for ppl to like other ppl of the same gender, won't the minority of the ppl liking the opposite gender be discriminated upon just the way that the homosexuals are now??? Haha... dunno whether I'm getting my message through...

back to the topic... so he got HIV like around 20 years ago and through this period of time he had gotten cancer twice, was blind once (but recovered sight), was close to death and suffered all kinds of hell due to HIV... and yet he emerged as strong as he is now... standing on the stage, willing to tell everyone his own story... this kind of bravery is not joking I tell you... and the fact that's he's still so cheerful and have such a wonderful sense of humour really alarms me... I'm really gonna learn from him... the way he faces all the difficulties in his life and never giving up... the difficulties that he faces in life is really what other ppl face in 3 lifetimes lor...

like since young he suffered all kind of discrimination in school by being bullied because he was different and having no friends... and just being forced to do things he didn't like and everything... being beaten... being punished by things he didn't do... the teachers didn't even help him... it's really a wonder he didn't become depressed and suicidal (ok he said he did... but he didn't actually commit it)

that's not the thing that angers me most... the thing that drives me really mad is the fact that the doctors that he consulted are so disgustingly unprofessional and unethical... firstly, when both his partner and him went to screen for HIV, the doctor didn't even tell them bout the fact that they had to return for a second test for follow up in order for the result to be valid... HE DIDN'T TELL THEM!!! If he told them, nothing like that would have happened... he might not have even gotten HIV... omg... I swear that I'm totally disgusted by that doctor... he should get his medical license taken away man... he doesn't deserve to be a doctor... and the only reason why they found out in the end was when his partner fell sick and had fever for months… and this time, when they went to find the doctor, the doctor actually took his partners blood for HIV screening without telling him (which is illegal) and when the results came back positive, he actually FORGOT to tell him the results... wow... just so convenient right... he just FORGOT! and when his partner finally asked him again, which is after several more months, the doctor had the audacity to say, “what do you expect? You got HIV!” Wow... I'm totally awed that there lived such an unethical doctor... my blood is really boiling at the very mention of this doctor lor... I hope he's rotting in hell right now...

I swear if I'm ever going to become a doctor successfully, I'm going to be a very professional and ethical one... never, NEVER! Like the doctor-rotting-in-hell... NEVER

Anyway... like I said... after he got HIV, he suffered even more... and just hearing how he went through everything makes me respect him...he is so bloody brave... I'm so honoured that I can actually meet someone like him...I'm really inspired by the bravery he had... from today onwards, I'm gonna be brave! Like mr peter!!! Hope he continues to live on and spread his story of courage to others :D mr peter! Wo3 ting3 ni3!! It's really ppl like you who make ppl view the world and things in a different angle...jiayou!!

<3 had a cup of tea at 11:48:00 PM