Just when you think that things couldn't get any worse...
they always do...
it's just like how they say...
when you are in a dog-shit luck, they really stick to you like dog shit...
and though good things come in pairs, bad things come in dozens...
ok well... i was the one who said all that...
grr... i feel like a grizzly bear right now... this whole week has been so shitty for me...
first, i have so many assessment tasks... then i find out that i would only meet brooklyn in my dreams... thirdly i have a chunk of skin missing from my face... then today i almost got murdered by a puppy... and just now blogger ate up my post (all the FEEL gone already... i seriously cannot remember what i typed... and i hate repeating what i've said)... oh wells at least that's 5 down and 7 more to go...
what happened last night was really stupid... after being dealt the trauma of my brooklyn being almost unattainable (i still am dealing with the aftermath of it), i spotted a pimple at the area under my nose... so out of irritation and pissed-ness, i pinched the pimple tip with what little i have of my nails and pulled...
HUGE MISTAKE...
let's just say that my moment of folly is now costing me a disfigured face with an area of red swollen 'under'-skin...
ouch...
oh... and even malu-er was the puppy... i now declare that i no longer like dogs as much as i used to... oh man... i think the main problem today was the owner... so irresponsible!!! grrr... the story goes on liddat... on the road that i take to and from school everyday, i'd pass this house (duh!) then occasionally there'd be this puppy (those very cute and hairy ones... but this one has like messy hair and i assume he's stinky... why assumed? never bothered to smell) lurking outside the house... usually we'd be like i-acknowledge-your-presence-and-you-acknowledge-mine-and-we-carry-on-our-separate-lives... but today dunno what happened hor! he kept following me... at first it was really slow, but he started going faster and faster and like wanted to chase me and that totally freaked me out ok! oh man... god knows whether it has lice lor... anyway... now i know how wrong i am when i laughed at ppl who run from dogs and in the end get bitten up... COS I RAN!!! omg... loserly sia... at that moment, the will to live reigned over common sense, and i ran to the opposite road (now to think of it... luckily there was no cars... haha... cos i was so freaked, i didn't even look at the road when i ran... haha... otherwise i would've died very ugly-ly) i feel like a total coward... cos it was seriously just a puppy... yes... but it didn't follow me across the road lah (maybe he was taught not to... genius dog sia) which was lucky me... haha... at one stage i even thought of hurling my maths textbook at him (partly to get rid of the puppy and partly cos i hate mr pidgeon so much)... but deciede not to cos of my lousy aiming... oh man... i hope i dun see the damn dog tomorrow again... maybe he'll recognise my scent... piang... i'd take another route home lah... stupid owner... if you don't have the responsibility to continue caring for the puppy why buy it in the first place!! and even if you wnat to dump it, dump it at those pet adoption places what! dun leave them unleashed on the streets to terrorrise me ok! and god knows whether i've stepped on it's shit before lor!
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just now typed this whole chunk of paragrah on my family life... hai... now that blogger ate it up... i really dunno how to cough it out... it's just so depressing and not me... or is that the real me and i'm just an academy-award deserving actress all along???
dear mum and dad,
i am your daughter... yes biological in case you haven't realised in the past 16 years and 3 days... please support me... that's the least that i need from you two... (rather impossible since i'm becoming more and more transparent...) if you can't even afford to give me a little bit of tlc, then i shall leave you with your more important things...
love,
your daughter
PS. stop telling me that i'm no longer a kid and i have to be more mature... you dunno how much i actually wish that my conscience would allow me to be a kid sometimes... maybe only under those kind of circumstances would you understand that you should not take things for granted. You are not the only ones who have done a lot for the family... i'm kinda wondering whether everything still makes sense when it feels so tired and depressing...
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maybe after living too long with someone, you care more about their feelings... and you would always do things that would gain their approval... maybe you would accomodate yourself and start convincing that as long as it makes them happy, you would be happy too... but there's a time when you try too hard... and everthing falls apart... and you wonder if you're still you...
ok... end of depressing freak... shall stop wallowing in self pity...
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"Rather than choosing a road that you like, it's better to choose a road that would bring you happiness"
-- zax wang renfu
but wouln't the road that you like also bring you happiness??
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RICHIE!!! i tell you hor! you better make up with xiaobei hor! or else... or else... aiyo... i dun like kelan lah... she's like an ah mah... you are so cool, you should be with xiaobei lor :D:D:D
it's just like how they say...
when you are in a dog-shit luck, they really stick to you like dog shit...
and though good things come in pairs, bad things come in dozens...
ok well... i was the one who said all that...
grr... i feel like a grizzly bear right now... this whole week has been so shitty for me...
first, i have so many assessment tasks... then i find out that i would only meet brooklyn in my dreams... thirdly i have a chunk of skin missing from my face... then today i almost got murdered by a puppy... and just now blogger ate up my post (all the FEEL gone already... i seriously cannot remember what i typed... and i hate repeating what i've said)... oh wells at least that's 5 down and 7 more to go...
what happened last night was really stupid... after being dealt the trauma of my brooklyn being almost unattainable (i still am dealing with the aftermath of it), i spotted a pimple at the area under my nose... so out of irritation and pissed-ness, i pinched the pimple tip with what little i have of my nails and pulled...
HUGE MISTAKE...
let's just say that my moment of folly is now costing me a disfigured face with an area of red swollen 'under'-skin...
ouch...
oh... and even malu-er was the puppy... i now declare that i no longer like dogs as much as i used to... oh man... i think the main problem today was the owner... so irresponsible!!! grrr... the story goes on liddat... on the road that i take to and from school everyday, i'd pass this house (duh!) then occasionally there'd be this puppy (those very cute and hairy ones... but this one has like messy hair and i assume he's stinky... why assumed? never bothered to smell) lurking outside the house... usually we'd be like i-acknowledge-your-presence-and-you-acknowledge-mine-and-we-carry-on-our-separate-lives... but today dunno what happened hor! he kept following me... at first it was really slow, but he started going faster and faster and like wanted to chase me and that totally freaked me out ok! oh man... god knows whether it has lice lor... anyway... now i know how wrong i am when i laughed at ppl who run from dogs and in the end get bitten up... COS I RAN!!! omg... loserly sia... at that moment, the will to live reigned over common sense, and i ran to the opposite road (now to think of it... luckily there was no cars... haha... cos i was so freaked, i didn't even look at the road when i ran... haha... otherwise i would've died very ugly-ly) i feel like a total coward... cos it was seriously just a puppy... yes... but it didn't follow me across the road lah (maybe he was taught not to... genius dog sia) which was lucky me... haha... at one stage i even thought of hurling my maths textbook at him (partly to get rid of the puppy and partly cos i hate mr pidgeon so much)... but deciede not to cos of my lousy aiming... oh man... i hope i dun see the damn dog tomorrow again... maybe he'll recognise my scent... piang... i'd take another route home lah... stupid owner... if you don't have the responsibility to continue caring for the puppy why buy it in the first place!! and even if you wnat to dump it, dump it at those pet adoption places what! dun leave them unleashed on the streets to terrorrise me ok! and god knows whether i've stepped on it's shit before lor!
--
just now typed this whole chunk of paragrah on my family life... hai... now that blogger ate it up... i really dunno how to cough it out... it's just so depressing and not me... or is that the real me and i'm just an academy-award deserving actress all along???
dear mum and dad,
i am your daughter... yes biological in case you haven't realised in the past 16 years and 3 days... please support me... that's the least that i need from you two... (rather impossible since i'm becoming more and more transparent...) if you can't even afford to give me a little bit of tlc, then i shall leave you with your more important things...
love,
your daughter
PS. stop telling me that i'm no longer a kid and i have to be more mature... you dunno how much i actually wish that my conscience would allow me to be a kid sometimes... maybe only under those kind of circumstances would you understand that you should not take things for granted. You are not the only ones who have done a lot for the family... i'm kinda wondering whether everything still makes sense when it feels so tired and depressing...
--
maybe after living too long with someone, you care more about their feelings... and you would always do things that would gain their approval... maybe you would accomodate yourself and start convincing that as long as it makes them happy, you would be happy too... but there's a time when you try too hard... and everthing falls apart... and you wonder if you're still you...
ok... end of depressing freak... shall stop wallowing in self pity...
--
"Rather than choosing a road that you like, it's better to choose a road that would bring you happiness"
-- zax wang renfu
but wouln't the road that you like also bring you happiness??
--
RICHIE!!! i tell you hor! you better make up with xiaobei hor! or else... or else... aiyo... i dun like kelan lah... she's like an ah mah... you are so cool, you should be with xiaobei lor :D:D:D
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