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ok... maybe things are not that easy... gosh...

我好想哭... 可是又不要哭... 心为何好痛... 是要死了吗？？？　哈哈...

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it's a sad thing... (weak pun... i know...)

hai...

feeling really depressed today... dunno why... wasn't me (or is this the real me... the one that i've been trying to hide since sec school???)... was all gloomy and grumpy for the whole day... and i hated that... i hated the me... felt like i returned to the girl in pri school... the one with loads of mood swings... the one who loved winter...

i hated that...

didn't smile for a whole lot of the morning and noon... haha... and the fact that the weather was all rainy and cloudy didn't help much either...

i guess even god was hinting me to stop being such an ass... cos the usually unlucky me actually won something... haha... yeh... 1 free snickers bar :)



anyway... it was me who bought the snickers in the first place... so...

on a sidenote... rachel bought a snickers too... but she didn't pay much attention to the wrapper and just threw it away... when i told her bout the free snickers, she was damn pissed... cos she said she saw words in the wrapper... haha... sadder than me lah...

anyway... the feeling seems to be fading away now... but still a huge chunk left...

hai...

i miss my sunshine... i think my only cure now is to have a chat with her... haha...

<3 had a cup of tea at 3:35:00 PM