i hate self censorship...

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你要的不是我...
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动

能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖

我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落

haha... i'm loving this song now... isn't it amazing how songwriters are able to write lyrics that are just so touching... so realistic in our daily lives... haha... this is so spooky...

i rmb i said once that i'm like a moon, aiming to become a sun... haha... dun get it???

i love the sun...

it's always so bright and warm... makes me feel happy whenever i see it... it's warmth and light is emitted from within it... so independent... just its presence would make a difference to people's lives... just being there makes ppl want to smile... so much so that even the earth is willing to revolve around it...

the moon is different...

no matter how bright the moon appears to be at night... it's always fake... it's light is forever only a reflection of the sun... without the sun, it is nothing... having it or not makes no difference at night... still so dark... still so cold... all it can do is revolve around the earth...

and the most impt point is...

the moon...

can NEVER turn into a sun...

haha...

so sad...

i'm starting to doubt my purpose in life... not that i haven't in the past... it's just that... i've always been able to convince myself that my presence would make a difference... i do have a purpose... it's just that the time hasn't arrived yet... haha... as u grow up u realise self-denial and consolation doesn't really work anymore... now... i'm not really clear whether i do have a purpose in life anymore... oh shit...

see lah!!! it's all because it's winter!!! makes ppl so melancholic... summer hurry come lah!!!!!

aiyo...

shit ah... my maths results... haha... i deproved... haha... 没脸见爹娘了啦!!!

still sniffing and coughing... might come back later...

<3 had a cup of tea at 3:43:00 PM