im all alone... at the end of the day... and being all by myself with no distractions (ok fine... not including my comp) forced me to think abt ext 1 maths today... moral of the story... NVR trust god... god dun want to bless me... cursed me instead... how nice...

if i dun get a good mark (for sure) then i dun think i deserve to do ext 2 maths... totally sucked... another thing on my things to do b4 i die list...

3) tell kk that he needs to put the MARKS allocated to EVERY question... then at least i'll be mentally prepared...

i dun believe it... is this what little potential i have within me?? competitiveness is nothing without any substance to support it... i dunno... already have major confidence issues and now... maths... y maths???

the school should really stop setting impossible papers to finish... how dare kk say that his aim was for everyone to pass when he comes up with this kind of freaking long papers... pass my ass lah... i hate him more than pidgeon now... at least pidgeon gave us a really nice trig question that was really difficult but i got full marks for (mind u i LUUURVE trig... esp the complicated double angles stuff... OMG ADOREEE THEM!!! n i'm seriously proud that i got full marks for my last ques in yr11 yearly lor... errr... shall not talk abt the other qns though... haha... ) that actually boosted my confidence... cos it's trig, i love it, i did it, i conquered it!!! muahahah...

AND NEXT TIME CAN THEY ACTUALLY PRINT THE PAPER PROPERLY LIKE ITS AN EXAM SHEET?!?!? i know we must save trees but isn't that a bit too much??? seriously!! y can't it be like the 2u maths layout???? so clean and proper... ok i'm being very picky and nonsensical...

it's just that... i could have done so much more... i dun want that do be my best... argh... i hate getting it back... let the whole bundle just burn... no... better still... disintegrate!!! no ashes left!!! :(

i hate being so alone...

but shan was really sweet... noticing that i havent eaten for the whole day n giving me biscuits (btw... woman the biscuits very hard leh... nxt time buy softer ones lah... haha... although i didn't really have the appetite then cos of maths) and that long conforting hug... I I :)

but at least chem and physics were quite good... physics was the biggest shock... haha... my results SOOO inaccurate still can liddat!!! i really can crap a lot... haha... but i got 1 mark deducted for inaccuracy lah... but quite happy... n chem went quite well... let's just hope i dun get disappointed by the results then...

btw... u really shouldn't curse urself... *ahem* unlike some ppl *ahem*... haha... keep saying that they screw up this screw up that when they obviously got sky high marks... HAHA... now let's see who's the one laughing!! at least it wasn't single-digit, like what u "predicted"... actually what a shame... it should be...

<3 had a cup of tea at 7:42:00 PM